I'm Limited...

Right now the world is spinning and I'm thrown off kilter. It's as if I have the biggest case of jet lag ever known in the living world. I tried to hold in the tears, at least until I got off the phone with Brian, but when he said I was making him happier today...that was it. I choked on this sob and that was the end of that charade. I was hoping to just quietly cry myself through my paper and maybe to sleep, but no.
It just broke my heart that he had a bad day. There was nothing I could do to make it better; in fact, I think things I have done in the last week kinda helped to make it worse. I don't want to cause trouble for him, ever. But I think I have. I'll just have to figure out a way to make it right.
Damn, I really am a loser.